so it seems that my choices of unis have come down to just abt 2/3 unis since i've pretty much been rejected by the us unis that i had wanted. Nope..not waitlisted...outright rejected. I shouldnt be feeling that upset..but it just sucks to know that well..im not good enough for them. And 2 of the schools were my "match" schools. Maybe i overestimated myself.

I didnt even bother to read the whole of the decision letter online. The first paragraph made it bad enough. Maybe it's just the absolute horrible feeling of getting 3 rejection letters in a row.. after 3 acceptance letters earlier on...2 from uk 1 from us. And these few weeks havent been enjoyable to say the least. Many scholarship things to do...which should make me excited actually. Think abt it..i am quite excited, just really tired. Only things that make it worthwhile are krasshy gatherings, class gatherings and dance prac. Really..i think my life is wasting away. Oh look it's april alr.

The only reason why i blog is probably to rant. Otherwise, maybe a few fun things like outings or uni results to tok abt. Think i've complained too much and did nothing to improve anything. Didnt register for driving in the end nor sign up for any classes and aint earning much from work at all. Really, I just cant wait for this whole scholarship process to be over...though i hope it last till the end...the final interviews.

Okay, i've got an essay test tmr that im not that sure why im going for. Prob coz i dun want to regret not going should things turn out differently. Anw..time to go study abit for it.