some of my classmates seriously thought that there was something wrong with me today
ya true...guess i was really quite dead in class today
slept alot the past few nites
but somehow all i felt like doing was nothing at all
well not nothing..but more like lying down and stoning
didnt feel like talking
didnt feel like thinking.
Like we were let off early during gp and i just took out my ipod and slept
haha..antisocial.

Fine i'll attempt to be less stone tomorrow.
Lest my classmates think im going crazy.
Anw there's dance again tomorrow and on friday.
Luckily there's no dance on sat or it'll be 5 days straight for me, 6 for the rest.
But i still like it nonetheless.
We're almost done with syf dance..think about 2 trainings more or so.

Rite...gtg...gd nite=)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

Happy Chinese New Year!

the long break wasnt exactly well spent. Planned to complete my tutorials but ended up catching up on a lot of sleep instead. Seriously...alot of sleep.

Anyway, as usual like i've been doing for the past 17 years, we went all the way to Pahang to celebrate the new year with my dad's family. Left the house early saturday morning at 620am and reached there at 430pm. 600 plus km!! It wouldnt have taken so long if not for all the jams along the way. But the journey didnt seem that long for me coz i slept for 85% of the wat. Had reunion dinner with my dad's younger sister's family that nite. My aunt's pro! She cooked all the dishes by herself! See...
Anyway went to my da-gu's house that nite. Sat down awhile and then went back and slept!

Next day...HAPPY NEW YEAR! Went to a couple of my aunts' houses. One of them invited a lion dance troupe to their place. The little kids really enjoyed it alot. See alot of them dancing around to the music. Nothing much to say. Didnt gamble not eat alot of new year snacks surprisingly. And NO! Im not on a diet! But then again...i didnt eat a single pineapple tart, bat kua, egg roll and only one prawn roll. Okae...pictures:

quan2 jia1 fu2.

unmarried cousins

my niece whom they say look alot like me when i was young

cute rite!

Next day stayed in the shophouse pretty much of the time. Attempted to do some work which didnt work out at all. In the afternoon, the shop downstairs invited a lion dance troupe also. What do u know..it's the same troupe as the one at my aunt's house. My little nieces and nephews were happily shaking along to the beat. Anyway went to the supermarket-like place later and there we see that same lion dance troupe. It's like a monopoly. Lao1 yu2 sheng1 that nite. This year we didnt go out to eat...so no real yu2 sheng1. So just for the significance we added in a few small fishes thing..i suddenly forgot what it's called. But it was fun nonetheless.

Came back on tuesday. Somehow i couldnt sleep in the car at all which meant the journey was damn boring! No massive jam at the second link luckily. Reached home at about 4 plus and rotted the time away..plus prepared abit for geog presentation. So that's basically it! A few more pictures then...

lion dance downstairs the shophouse

the street

Now spot genting!

Okay that's all! Maths tutorial awaits.

cross--when sats score came out.

note my mood change when i saw my SATS score manz

THEY SUCK!

As in seriously

not the kind where like 2100 is sucky kind of sucky.

I dont think anyone i know got as low as me

plus..I dont exactly have alot of time to retake.

Today hasnt been the greatest of days.

NUS tutorial today was bad

coz for one thing i dun think anyone understands what im toking about.

Plus i think my participation score in class must really suck

since i have nothing to say half the time.

Later rushed back to school for dance and was one hour late

Have to go meet up online for geog project now.

Really crappy day today=(

Bye

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

must say school was really fun today.
Seeing all the pink and red balloons around
plus a few cupids roaming abt including maths lecture.
Thx everyone for all the presents and chocolates and brownies etc.

Watched some singing performance in the canteen today.
Some were really quite good.
For example the shan hu hai duet
since that song's really hard (think kbox)
but too bad the mikes screwed up abit.

Went for dance and then vday dinner with jerrine and vernus.
Haha...my hot dates!

Havent done anything since i came home
and i dun intend to actually.
Just realised how much there is to do
and i really dont want to go for nus class tomorrow
Soo...i shall just go and sleep now.
Gd nite=)

it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be
since most of us wore our jackets everywhere.

Anw, thx weihan, zhixu and hui!
Dun think i'll be emo for quite some time already=)

Oh yes, not forgetting

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOFFA!

alert...emo post ahead!

im not looking forward to tomorrow at all.
Never wanted to do it...but since most people dun mind, can i say no?
I was dreading it the whole day today.
At least some of my classmates know about it already and hopefully wont laugh at me too much.
And oh well...it could be fun. Who knows?

How do u continue with something when ur heart isnt in it anymore.
When u simply dun feel like going for it?

I've given up on alot of things recently.
Not the kind of giving up associated with sacrifices.
But more like i simply lost interest and stopped.
It was swimming a long time ago, then art class, then skating.
I even dread going for music classes quite abit nowadays.
I dont practise and come up with crappy excuses.

Sometimes it really feels sucky...
Like a kind of failure or something of that sort.
Like i never really achieved or succeeded at anything.
Like i can never be really good at something.
Everything just came along and i did it.
And once i dont like it that much i stop.
There's doesnt seem to be any determination or anything involved in the things i do.
Fine..that may sound kinda extreme.
But there's quite abit of that feeling in me sometimes.

Take skating for example.
Yes...i do miss skating alot.
But sometimes i dont want to go to the rink at all.
Coz im scared of failing,
scared of falling,
scared of being unable to do the things i used to be able to do.
I couldnt commit to skating at all.
Lessons once a week were crappy and inconsistant.
One week i could do all the jumps and progress even further.
The next week i cant even land a single jump.
Imagine getting stuck at the same level for 1-2 years.
Doing the same thing over and over again every week.
It's inevitable i guess with the amount of practise i get.
But the feeling sucks really.
So now that my coach/ex-coach is pregnant and away.
I simply stopped going to the rink after awhile.
Didnt really say that i was stopping officially.
I simply stopped going.

Do i miss skating?
Of course!

People say the things u regret in life are not the things u did but rather the things u didnt do.
Will i regret never landing the double flip, lutz or axel?
Or making my dbl toe and loop consistant after so many years?
Or taking part in all the competitions?
Of course!
But somehow i was never in the mood for lessons after awhile..
warming up properly seemed pointless.
I could go on being emo about skating.
But what's the point...since i've stopped for so long already.

On to another matter.
I think im sometimes too affected by what others around me are saying
though it's not about me.
Get what i mean?

For example...
when some of my frens are stressing and complaining about certain stuff
say exams, workload, competitions etc
I tend to get really stressed about what they say
and would rather pull away and not listen.
Im probably experiencing the same thing...or not
but once i listen, somehow i feel unprepared and really stressed out.
Oh well...I cant seem to express clearly what im trying to say here.

And i think i've been neglecting some of my friends recently.
Read somewhere about how it's so weird that frens can sometimes be so close
and gradually and unknowingly become distant after awhile.

This is probably the first emo post i have in this blog.
Just a whole bunch of crap actually.
Im sorry if i've wasted anyone's time.
Hopefully there wont be anymore anytime soon.

hey!! Shall post the pics of dance camp when i get all the pics.

Anyway, went out with hui and kelly today! Coincidentally, the shorts, shoes, bag and earrings i wore today were bought with hui=)) and somebody was 1 hour late. Thankfully i wasnt that on time either. Walked around awhile while waiting and then headed to new york new york for lunch. Later kelly joined us at anderson's ice cream for desert.

I dunno what to say. But we were bored at marina square and so went down to far east. Got less bored, bought my shoes for new year and then went home.

It's always lovely spending time with the gals...where we can tok crap and not so crappy stuff as well and feel so comfortable. Love u guys (gals)!! Anyway...KELLY...busy girl!! Hope u had fun today. It was great catching up with u ya! and HUI..hope u managed to get your shoe in the end!

lambada has 2 10 A1 scorers!!
Congrats Shuhan and Augustine!!
We're damn proud of u all!
To the rest, hope yall are happy with your results.
But even if u're not, dont fret k...Lambada will always be there for u!

From what i hear, everyone or most can stay in RJ =))
Glad that yall are still going strong,
having og dinner very very often and what mugging sessions in the library.
Plus the fact that yall actually stay back till late just to wait for the rest.
Sorry i always cant make it for og dinners these few days.
But whatever it is, im there with u guys in spirit ya!!
Orientation 2's coming soon!
Bet it'll be fun! Just because u guys and gals are there!
Love yall loadz!

Okay...just came back from dance camp.
It was a really good bonding session with the rest of the J2s and also a great opportunity to know the J1s better. Glad to see that they're a great bunch of people and i really hope they'll be as bonded as our batch! For the J2's the next few months will be hiong and so this was really a great opportunity for us to have fun together. The people in it is really what makes chinese dance so enjoyable. Like what ivy said, our experience so far have really shown us how bonded a cca can get. For our batch at least, there isnt any distint cliques or any hatred whatsoever between anyone. The dancers are like our support system, whom we can go to anytime we have any problems, and can sit down anywhere and just be able to have fun together! Our senior batch have really set a great foundation for us, in increasing our bondedness, our commitment and passion for the cca! Trainings may be 4-5 times a week. But it's not as bad as it sounds coz of all my lovely fellow dancers!!

Shall post some pics of dance camp later. Going new year clothes shopping again tomorrow with hui and kelly!

im going new year clothes shopping tomorrow despite the fact that i have four tests next week- mon: human geog, tue: physics lecture test, thurs: maths tutorial test, fri: chem spa. I guess that explains why im still online now. Trying to mug as much of urban geog as possible now. Didnt know there's that much to mug till now.

Spend most of my time in school today. Reached school at 8 for dance prac. Went to run at the track, did some basic+conditioning stuff and then learnt more of the J2 dance. The windy benches area is really dirty and gross now. But after a few weeks/months of all our dance prac it'll become clean once again, like last year =)) Anyway, met hui for lunch at mos. Haha...fun lunch session today manz!! Then went back to school for oteam debrief...basically just listen and stone.

Btw i've got a big bruise on my foot now coz my left foot landed on my right after jumping in one of lao shi's zu3 he2. o_O

Okay...my geog notes still awaits. In the mean time...go check out Lamebada's blog: l-ambada.blogspot.com . Da coolest og !