im really tired..

but i cant sleep again.

oh no im back to one-liner posts

today im really exhausted from dance and my back hurts for once...hey..that means we're training hard rite. But training was fulfilling anw. Last prac...go girls!!

anw im attempting to write more than one line coz cher says that the only thing i ever write- one liners. Hey cher!! u reading this? Haha.

So what's been going on? Scholarships..scholarships...and more scholarship interviews. They've been fun actually, quite an interesting experience talking to all the interviewers. And i've met a great bunch of people (uh-humcompetitorsuh-hum) at the various assessment centres. But no..seriously, there's one good part of this whole process. Yet, still no scholarships after 4-5 weeks. Im really hoping for the best. A few more weeks to go. **Ahh...screams!!**

other things...there was rg gym concert last friday. Omg we're sec 7! Anw went with aster, mel and zx. Havent met the former 2 since prom. Let's have Y-A-M-Z gathering again soon ya!! Ok picture time..im too lazy to write much now..

my juniors are pro

dan ren 05

Y-A-M-Z (not in order)

ok im tired alr. Gotta push myself through another day of work again and im not looking forward to it coz there's nothing to do at the moment. It's not fun to surf the net for 8 hours straight.

when it comes to scholarship apps one really feels what it's like to work our heads off and yet have to accept that it may not pay off. And this time the consequences are really real. Worrying bout school exams may seem like such a big thing in the past and yes, they are important. But compared to scholarships and the many things we'll prob face next time, they are prob nothing.


it sucks to compare but it's natural instinct to do so and it absolutely feels terrible to know that well...maybe one just aint good enough. Trying to live up to expectations makes it even worse.




it's tiring...









but despite all my complains..i really have to thank mum, dad and jie for their support

i think i should just quit and do something else

and sometimes i wonder how the hell i got to where i am

it's all not meant to be

so it seems that my choices of unis have come down to just abt 2/3 unis since i've pretty much been rejected by the us unis that i had wanted. Nope..not waitlisted...outright rejected. I shouldnt be feeling that upset..but it just sucks to know that well..im not good enough for them. And 2 of the schools were my "match" schools. Maybe i overestimated myself.

I didnt even bother to read the whole of the decision letter online. The first paragraph made it bad enough. Maybe it's just the absolute horrible feeling of getting 3 rejection letters in a row.. after 3 acceptance letters earlier on...2 from uk 1 from us. And these few weeks havent been enjoyable to say the least. Many scholarship things to do...which should make me excited actually. Think abt it..i am quite excited, just really tired. Only things that make it worthwhile are krasshy gatherings, class gatherings and dance prac. Really..i think my life is wasting away. Oh look it's april alr.

The only reason why i blog is probably to rant. Otherwise, maybe a few fun things like outings or uni results to tok abt. Think i've complained too much and did nothing to improve anything. Didnt register for driving in the end nor sign up for any classes and aint earning much from work at all. Really, I just cant wait for this whole scholarship process to be over...though i hope it last till the end...the final interviews.

Okay, i've got an essay test tmr that im not that sure why im going for. Prob coz i dun want to regret not going should things turn out differently. Anw..time to go study abit for it.